K / 22. Bay Area. Queer. Ask for pronouns.
This blog has taken almost as much of a journey as I have. It has settled nicely into a land of body positivity, self love, encouragement and inspiration, queerness, genderqueerness, feminism, classy nudes, healthy choices of all kinds, and snippets of my personal life.
I am on a journey towards self love and body acceptance. I am going through a period of self-discovery involving my sexuality and gender orientation. I am queer, and wouldn't have it any other way.
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Posts tagged with weightloss.
“slimming strategy #9: sleep enough. when you’re tired, you’re less willing to eat healthy as well as have less willpower to resist temptations.”
(via happilymaintaining)(via healthyisalwaysbetter)
As I sit here sipping on my completely unhealthy mocha Frappucino from Starbucks as I work on my adoption caseload„
I think about the concept of perception, yet again.
Sometimes, I eat totally unhealthy things (like Frappucinos) because my perception of myself is that I can’t lose weight, so I might as well eat things that I enjoy, even if they don’t make my body feel good. (Body positive tip for the day: don’t aim to please your tastebuds over your body)
Yesterday, my boyfriend and I went to my home town to go through my old possessions so that we could decide which things I am going to take with me to our new apartment. I found a lot of pants (including work pants, which I got excited about), and ventured to try them on, even though I hadn’t worn them since freshman or sophomore year of high school (almost 10 years ago)! To my utter surprise, shock, and amazement, a lot of the pairs of pants fit me! I couldn’t believe my eyes. Was I really fitting into pants that I had worn in early high school? Had I finally been able to fit into the “skinny pants” that I had refused to get rid of, on the offchance that I would fit into them again some day?
I think about perception because - when I look myself in the mirror, I don’t feel like I’ve lost weight. My thighs touch, my stomach bulges, I can’t see my abs, my arms are flabby, my love handles stick out over my pants.
BUT the reality of the situation cannot be avoided - I CAN FIT INTO MY SKINNY PANTS.
So where the hell is the weight coming from?
And why the hell is my perception of myself so different from reality? Obviously I have lost weight. I used to be a size 11 in Target jeans, a size 8 in H&M, a size 6 in American Eagle, a size 8 in Delia’s. Now I’m a size 9 in Target, 6 in H&M, 4 in American Eagle, and 6 in Delia’s. How has this happened? And why can’t I accept it?
Is my new goal to be even smaller than I was in high school?
Is that healthy?
And can I afford to buy the new clothes that will be necessary when I continue to lose weight?
My new goal, I think, is to gain muscle mass. I don’t want to necessarily lose thickness, I just want to become more tone and strong.
And that means I have to start working out!!! ^^
Why Starving Seems to Work
It’s hard to explain to someone who has nearly or fully starved themselves for a few days that what they’re doing isn’t effective. The proof is right there on the scale, right? Two pounds, five pounds, ten pounds flushed from their bodies like that, simply from not eating.
Wrong. Losing real weight from starving is physically impossible. Your body absolutely can not lose that much weight in a week. It’s not because you weren’t working hard enough, or didn’t starve for long enough. It’s because you can’t do it, just like you can’t grow gills and live underwater like a fish.
Here’s what happens when your body is starved of nutrients:
Your body realizes that it needs energy to continue to function, to blink and breathe and scratch your forehead. All of this requires power source, and it has to get it from somewhere. When you don’t give your body the energy it needs from food, it cannibalizes itself as an energy source. The prime directive of the body is that it must have energy at any cost.
The protein in your muscles is the only energy source a starving person has, and since you aren’t eating, it’s the only choice you are left with. Your body will begin to destroy muscle cells to release that protein so it can convert it into energy. Muscles are about 70% water, so when a muscle cell is destroyed, that water is released and eventually excreted. That’s your weight loss.
Your body didn’t convert any lumpy fat into lean muscle. It didn’t begin to use fat as an energy source. It didn’t just magically get rid of three or four pounds of pure fat. It’s going to keep you alive at any cost, and that means burning up the muscle and using that to power you. Guess what? You’ve just increased your body fat percentage. Fat weighs less than muscle and takes up more space, so you might even look bigger than before.
You’ve also lowered your metabolism. Muscle is metabolically active tissue, so the more muscle you have, the higher your metabolic rate. The next bite of food you take, your body will use less efficiently and will hold on to much longer, converting it into fat and storing it for the long famine ahead.
Starving is not an effective weight loss tool. Not just because you shouldn’t starve yourself, not just because of the incredibly dangerous effects it has on your brain, not just because it can ruin your body forever. It really doesn’t work.
If you continue to starve yourself, your body will never get over that period of starvation. Your brain is programmed for survival, not for skinny, and you’ll become permanently hardwired to think that there is never enough, that you are constantly starving, even when you’re not.
Anorexia and Bulimia are extreme psychological diseases. and the above is your body’s evolutionarily hardwired response to trying desperately to survive on so very little nutrients. It is not your fault. If you’re struggling with starving, please consider getting help.
Just the irony of expectation and reality… I already knew this, but I like how it was worded.
I see a lot of posts that say “Reblog if you’re thinspo or fitspo”
Or “Reblog if you’re a weightloss blog”. . . And I really feel tempted to reblog, but I know that I shouldn’t because I don’t share a lot of advice or tips for weightloss, I’m just trying to lose weight myself. I think I would feel guilty reblogging and then have them look at my page and just see positive messages and body positivity, if they were looking for actual fitspo!
Thoughts?








